After this hsc business, I want to go away, see beautiful things, immerse myself in beautiful things, so when bad times come around, I'll have those good memories to let me know that life isn't all bad. That i can move from one day to the next without a cloud over my head. Just to be alone and take it all in, clear the space in my head for the new things, better things that will push me forward rather than draw me back. I want to tell people about myself without breaking down into a mess, to regurgitate the past and present with acceptance, that it will be a part of me, always. I will find me.