Short and sweet. I haven't blogged in quite a while and would like to thank that individual out there who's been trying to read my horrible blogs, or perhaps there was no one... which would most likely be the case D: I thought you know, starting this blog would keep me sane, and keep active the mind that is dormant, but it hasn't been, I mean, I've spent the whole morning trying to find the perfect skin for my blog and gave up and stuck with this one until i find something better to look at.
Well honestly the past few days or maybe weeks, i don't know, i've been feeling really down, and when your that kinda 'down' lets say, you try to let it not reflect on how you are, or who you are when your around friends,

' because no one likes a sour puss"

and in saying that its been really hard to not do that, not let it reflect on me. And i hate feeling like this, when your so mentally drained and emotionally exhausted that you feel in a way that all your options or your way outs have been closed. But i commend those you have tried to put up with my shit for the last week or so, NATASHA LAY AND THIEN THACH (L) I lover you guys :D And when your so down, you tend to go deeper into thought, and that ladies and gentlemen are why the best artists were probably doing drugs or really depressed, because the process of thought that goes into developing art i believe is greater than that making it.


I've reflected also on what Giang said about, looking for someone subconsciously but not knowing who it is you're looking for and it kinda meshes together with the idea that you know the perfect someone will come into your life and lift you off your feet, but we tend to look further into the horizon and finding that the greatest things were initially there.

The perfect person i think, is already there, the person you take for granted or was too much a perfect thing that they sorta of blended into your life and you just never sought to think of it that way

and this isn't regarding only intimate relationships, but also about friends and family. We all try to search for the meaning of what life and or happiness is, and tend to digress from the reality of our situation, that we delve too much into things and loose sight of what is real. However in saying this, we all should look beyond what is there, because the best things don't show up when you expect them too, and they aren't usually the things we want, but were needed and never realised.

The perfect person is like the proverbial needle in the haystack, where as your grow you come to understand that the only thing that really matters in the whole pile of hay is the needle - and the rest is just food for cows.

Sorry if i went out of context to watch i was intially saying and yeah short and sweet my ass HAHAA (y)